Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I Am Officially Done Keeping Quiet..

Do I Look Like A Fucking Clown For You Guys To Laugh At Me?
Am I Wearing A Sign That Says Stare Here?
Am I Your Friend That You Must Call My Name?
So Much For Being The 'Seniors' In The School Right?
I Didnt Even Do Anything To You Guys, I Didnt Even Hurt Any Of You Guys..
And You Guys Are Doing This To Me?
What..
Is It A Crime To Like A Person?
If It Is Please Tell Me..
There Is A Difference Between Liking A Person And Being Obsessed In The Person..

Fine..
You Wanted To Hear It..
So I Shall Satisfy Your Craving..
Its True..
Ok..
But So What?
Its Not Like As If Anything Is Gonna Happen Right?


Dont Forget I Have Feelings Too..
And I Too Have Limits..
As Yes I May Pretend Not To Care About It..
But Inside Its Just Tearing Me Apart..
Cant You People See It?
Or Must I Break Down Infront Of You Guys For You Guys To Stop?
Then Again, I Dont Even Think Breaking Down Infront Of You Guys Will Even Do Anything..
Deep Down I Feel Like Killing Myself..
Why?
For Fucking Four Years I Kept It All To Myself..
But Now Everyone Is Looking At Me Like As If I Am A Wanted Person..
What The Fuck Is Wrong With Liking A Person?
Is It A Crime?
I Just Feel Like Ending Everything Cause I Honestly Cannot Handle Those Feelings Anymore..
And You Guys Arent Making It Any Easier..
Calling And Teasing, Staring Like Nobody's Business..
Have You Guys Forgotten That I Too Have Feelings?
And That I Too Have My Limits..
Open Your Eyes And See What You Guys Are Doing..
Cause I Am Gonna Have A Mental Breakdown Any Day Now..
And I Dont Want You Guys To Be The Reason For That..
Cause I Have Got Nothing Against You Guys..
And I Know That You Guys Have A Heart To Think..
Put Yourself In My Shoes And You Will See What I Mean..
Cause Its Honestly Not Funny..



So Please Stop..
I Cant Take It Anymore..
I Really Cant Take It Anymore..
Just Stop..

Then I Am Also Done Just Letting People Telling Me What To Do..
I Too Am A Human Being Who Has The Right To Say No..
So No One Has The Right To Make Me Feel Guilty For Saying No..
Cause I Have Said Yes Too Many Times..
And I Cant Differentiate Between My Real Friends And Those Who Just Use Me..
I Am Not A Mat For You Guys To Step On..
I Too Have My Own Life..
And I Can Do What I Want To Do..
So Stop Telling Me What To Do!
I Dont Wanna Get Angry At You Guys..
And I Dont Hate You Guys.
But I Am Just Not Happy About Everything That Is Happening..
I Want Things To Go Back To The Way It Was,,


I AM JUST SO FUCKING FUCKED UP AT THIS FUCKING WORLD!!!
My Whole World Is Just Crumbling..
And I Cant Hold Back The Tears Anymore..
I Need Someone.. I Cant Hold All This In Anymore..
Help..

Rahul..xoxo

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