* From The Moment I First Laid Eyes On You, I Knew My World Would Change Forever.. Never In My Life Had I Felt That Feeling I Felt On That Day In 2006.. My Whole World Stopped.. My Knees Became Jelly.. My Mouth Became Dry.. My Palms Became Sweaty.. My Heart Started Thumping.. And My Eyes Got Blinded By The Sight Of Your Eyes.. Worst Still, I Became Breathless And Nearly Fainted.. It Was Then That I Knew I Had Fallen For You.. But I Denied Myself The Chance To Like You As I Knew It Was Morally And Sanely Wrong.. Then, As The Year Progressed On, I Saw You More Often During Recess And In The Field.. Yet I Denied Myself Any Chance Of Even Thinking That We Could Get Together..
Then The Years Progressed And I Started Seeing Myself See You Change From Something To Something.. Yet, You Still Had A Place In My Heart Cause You Were The Reason I Loved Going To School.. And You Were The Source Of My Happiness When I Needed It The Most.. It Took Me 3 Whole Years To Realise That No One Could Make Me Feel The Same Way As You.. Moreover, Ending My Relationship With Steph Only Made Things Worst.. It Was Then I Realised That I Did Not Love Anybody But You..
2009 Came As Things Became Complicated.. I Finally Revealed My Deepest Secret To Those Dear To Me.. I Thought It Would Make Things Better.. But Everything Went Downhill From There.. The Secret Got Out, And You Found Out..
I Can Still Feel The Tears That Came Out That Faithful Day I Got Called That Word From Your Friends.. I Remember Just Crying Myself To Sleep Each Day Dreading Going To School Cause I Didnt Want To Embarass You Or Make A Fool Of Myself.. I Remember The Days Just Covering My Face Up With Concealer And Powder To Hide The Red Eyes And Puffy Eyes That Came With The 2 Hours Crying Session.. If It Wasnt For Nazirah, Athirah, Sabrina..' I Would Have Honestly Killed Myself For Letting Myself Get Into All This Rubbish..
You May Not Have Noticed It.. But I Was Never Mean To You.. I Never Did Anything That Harmed You.. Yet You Still Did All Those Things To Me.. And Trust Me, I Am Not A Very Nice Person To Know If You Dont Know Me.. Cause People Dont Call Me Bitch For No Reason.. Yet All The Mockery And Insulting Took Place.. Do You Think It Was Fun Having To Hide From Your Group In School? Do You Think It Was Easy To Mantain A Straight Face Knowing So Many People Were Gawking At Me? Do You Think It Was Easy For Me To Know That Everybody Around Me Knew My Whole Story ?
Have You Guys Ever Spared A Though About How People Feel? Have You Ever Wandered What Your Actions Result Into? Or Are You Guys Just Plain Bastards Without A Heart?
Yet In My Eyes, All Of You Look Like The Most Nicest People In The World Who Have Hearts And Who Have Brains To Think..
Even Though I Know Liking You Is Like The Last Thing I Should Do On My List.. I Honestly Just Cannot Press Delete You.. So Listen Boy..
Thats What I Feel About You..
I Know I Should Be Slapped For Still Feeling Like This.. But What Can I Do? I May Cry Myself To Sleep Every Night.. But When I See You, Its Like Nothing Ever Happened..
