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Maybe The Past Is Like An Anchor Holding Us Back... Maybe, You Have To Let Go Of Who You Were To Become Who You Will Be...We've All Done Something In Our Lives We're Ashamed Of... Some Of Us Have Fallen For The Wrong Man... Some Have Let Go Of The Right Woman... There Are Those Who Have Humiliated Their Parents And Those Who Have Failed Their Children..Yes, We've All Made Mistakes That Diminish Us And Those We Love...But There Is Redemption If We Try To Learn From Those Mistakes And Grow..You Would Think That Me, Of All People Would Not Regret Anything That I Have Done..But You Are Wrong..As A Pupil, I Made The Mistake Of Not Studying Hard Enough And Doing Well. In The Process Letting Down My Teachers..As A Friend, I Made The Mistake Of Being A Backstabber, A Gossiper And A Bitch To Those Dear To Me. In The Process Causing Me To Loose Many Friends In The Process..As A Human Being, I Failed To Stand Up For My Own Rights And To Stand My Foot Down. In The Process Making Me Into An Easy And Naive Victime For People To Pray On..I Have Gone Through Many Phases In My Life, From The Era Of Being Sporty Spice To Now The Era Of The Black Pearl..But When Am I Going To Stop And Start Being Rahul..Not Posh Spice, Not Queen B, Not Bitchy Spice, Not The Teenage Drama Queen, Not Medussa, Not Scary Spice, Not Quiet Spice..Just To Be Rahul Rehman..Who Is Rahul Rehman?Thats A Question I Cant Even Answer..*
Hope 4-1 B 2009 Chalet Was Spooky, Tiring, Fun And A Fantastic Bonding Event..
The 1st Day Was Good :D
Unpacking Everything, Having Dinner Playing Truth Or Dare With Janice, Jun Kai, Pearly And Jericks Was Really Fun And We Really Bonded :D
Jennifer's Body Was A Rocking Movie Which Was Sick But Nice And I Really Enjoyed It..
Then Junkai Kept Freaking Me Out On The Way Back To The Chalet -.-
Talking And Playing Till Like 5.a.m
Sleeping For Like 10-15 Mins..
Mac At 6.a.m
And Sleeping From 8-11 Am The Next Day..
Class BBQ This Year Was Fun Cause The Food Was Really Nice And Everything Was Fab..
Of Course The Rain Was A Little Annoying..
Then When I Was About To Sleep, Junkai Scared The Living Hell Out Of Me So Much So That I Jumped Out Of My Bed And Ran Out Of My Room Only To See A Laughing Junkai Outside Smilling -.-
Talking With Weilun And Co..
Then Sleeping From 2-8.30
10112009 Went Home After Chalet Only To See My House In A Mess..
Started Shouting And Everything Only To See My Fucking Mom Telling Me To Shut Up..
She Went On And On..
So Much So That My Bath Got Disrupted And I Got Fucking Pissed At Her..
I Dont Understand This Fucked Up Family Which I Have Never Considered My Self To Be Apart Of..
They ARE ALL JUST FUCKED UP BASTARDS WHO I WISH DIE AND ROT IN HELL :D
And I Mean It..
Met Nazirah And Sarah After That..
Then To Ath's House To Pick Up Casurina Leaves With Sabrina :D
Now At Home With Tears Rolling Down My Eyes..
With Only Minho And CH Keeping Me Happy..
Everything Is Just Fucked Up..
All I Want Is A Break From This Fucking World..
All I Want Is To Be Able To Be Myself Without People Passing Judgement..
I Am Just Fucked Up With This Fucking World..
I Sit Here, Sucking A Lollipop, Watching Minho Sing Ring Ding Dong, Looking At CH's Picture..
Making A Silent Prayer That One Day..
Everything Will Go Back To The Way It Was..
Rahul..xoxo
