Wednesday, November 25, 2009

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When You Look In The Mirror, What Do You See?
Some People Only Look In The Mirror To Look Whether Their Makeup Is Fine, To Look At Their Hair, Or Even Their Lips..
But If You Look Really Closely, A Mirror Can Reveal What You Are Really Feeling, And What You Really Are..
What Do I See When I Look In A Mirror?
I See A Lost Soul Who Still Has Not Figured Out Why He Is On The Earth, Scared By All The Insults He Has Received Hiding Behind An Ego To Hide His Real Emotions..
But Does Having An Alter Ego Really Help?

You See In Primary School I Was Known As The Biggest Bitch In The School..
I Was Considered One Of The 'Atas' People As The Malay People Called Me..
Almost Half The School Despised Me..
I Mean Who Wouldnt?
I Was A Prefect, The Band Major And I Was One Of The Stars In The Atheletics Team..
But Being A Bitch Was Kinda A Lonely Thing, I Mean With All The Partying And Everything, My Studies Fell Behind And Nobody In School Wanted To Be My Friend..
It Was Then That I Swore I Would Never Be A Bitch Ever Again..

Coming To Secondary School Was A Hard Step For Me..
I Mean Nobody Knew Who The Hell I Was, I Didnt Even Know How To Adapt To My Surroundings..
And Nobody Could Speak Proper English..
Obviously I Had To Make A Name For Myself Right?
I Went On To Be Known As Posh Spice, The Flamboyant Rich Kid Who Spoke Of His Wealth Like Nobody's Business..
Yes, I Gained Popularity And Everything, But Then I Started To Wonder Whether People Became Friends With Me Because Of My Money Or Because Of Me..
It Was Then I Became Bitchy Spice..
A Person Who Had No Regard For People's Feelings And Spoke His Mind Regardless Of What People Felt..
And It Caused Me To Become One Of The Most Envied And Hated People In School..
I Lost Many Friends And It Send Me Into A Dilema..
Was It Time I Finally Revealed What I Really Was?
Was It Time I Snap Out Of All My Phases?

Now In The Era Of theBLACKpearl, I See Myself Being Something I Wanted To Be..
What Is The Black Pearl?
Something That Stands Out From Th Crowd Yet Keeps Quiet Without Having To Attract Attention So Loudly..
I Am Actually Happy Being The Way I Am Right Now..
I Mean I Am Quiet, I Dont Let People Get To Me, I Keep My Silence About Things But Can Be Bitchy When I Want To Be Bitchy..
So Its The Best Of Both Worlds..

But This Time. I Am Living Life To What I Want My Life To Be..
Who Cares If People Think I Am Gay? ( I Go Both Ways)
Who Cares If People Make Fun Of The Way I Walk?
This Is Who I Am?
And I Got The Support Of My Friends..
And I Know This Is What I Truely Am..

PLANS FOR DECEMBER
* Catch Up With Jingrong, Joel, Eeching,Laura (Haven Spoken To Them In Ages)
1) N LEVEL RESULTS :D
2) Newmoon/The Princess And The Frog With Nazirah,Athirah,Syikin,Sabrina,Raden.Siti
3) Outing With Shuhui,Qinyi,Zinnia
4) Band ROD cum BBQ
5) Go Out With Hsinwei,Weilun,Brandon,Zhun Weng,Choon Kee, Jerricks ( Very Important, Haven Been Spending Time With Them.. Sorry Guys :( )
6) Go Out With Janice, Yvonne, Pearly, Jun Kai, Jerricks..
7) Become Friends With Hsinwei ( Very Important)
8) Jogging Every Morning
9) Another Picnic With Nazirah, Syikin, Athirah, Raden, Siti, Sabrina, Sarah
10) Prepare For SEC 5
11) Xmas
12) Settle Misunderstanding With CH
13) Prepare Outlook For Studies And Band IN 2010
14) Buy Ed Hardy School Bag..
15) Loose Weight And Dye Hair..

Hopefully Things Go As Planned :D

AND TAEMIN GOT SWINE FLU :( :( :( :( :(
Hopes He Gets Well Soon :D
SHINee Fighting!

And OMG CHOI SIWON, KIM RYEOWOOK AND LEE DONGHAE FROM SUPER JUNIOR ARE NOW OFFICIALLY ON MY KPOP HOT LIST !!
Rahul..xoxo

소원을 말해봐 ♥
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