Lets See, With 2010 Approaching Very Soon, I Have Made Up My Very Very Long Resolution List.. Given That For Some Reason Everything I Resolute This Year Came True, I Am Adamant To Ensure That I Accomplish Everything I Hope To Resolve Next Year..
1) I Am Honestly Done Lying To People And To Myself.. - Of Course As People May Have Known, I Gave Up Being My Posh Spice Self To Make Up For All The Fake Arrogance And Being Snobbish, I Mean Being That Ego Gets You No Where In Life.. 2) I Am Gonna Have To Change My Attitude, I Mean, Everyone Who Does Not Know Me Thinks That I Am Super Arrogant And Thinks I Am A Total Cocky Bastard. And That Is Exactly What I Am In Actual Life. Something I Have Got To Change. 3) I Am Gonna Stop To Pretend That Things Are Ok, When They Are Not, Because People Who Knows Me, Know That I Am Actually A Very Lonely Person Who Confides Everything Into My Blog, But I Am Gonna Have To Let Down My Pride And Start Opening My Heart To More People, Cause After I Lost My Best Friend. I Became An Emotional Wreck.
4) Gonna Officially Remove My Surname Cause I Cannot Stand My Family. So What If I Am Lonely? So What If I Have No One To Depend On. You Think I Dont Know That? Everyone Knows I Have Freaking Repented So Get Your Facts Right. So As Far As I Am Fucking Concerned. They Are Good As Dead To Me. And I Am Gonna Survive Without Anyone By My Side. Cause I Know I Can. And Another Thing I Want To Make Clear. Dont Even Talk About Me If You Dont Know A Single Thing About Me. Dont Make Fucking Assumptions About Me If You Are Hearing Things From Haters That Dont Even Like Me. In Case You Didnt Know. Many Friends Of Mine Know That I Am An Insecure Bastard Who Has The Pride Super High That He Never Admits Defeat. So You And Your Narcissistic Fucked Up Asshole And Iffah Can Go To Hell For All I Care. For The Rest Of Them In The House. You Guys Can Fuck Off And Die For All I Care Cause I Dont Give A Fuck About Any Of You.
5) Aiming For 8 Points For My O Levels. Even If I Have Go Without Sleep, Pull Out My Hair And Loose Everything Around Me To Get It All Over Again. So Be It. 6) I Am Gonna Start Finding Out Who I Really Am, Gonna Piece The Pieces From My Various Egos, And I Am Gonna Create A Rahul Who I Know I Will Love. 7) I Am Gonna Honestly Reinvent Myself And Become The Black Pearl Figure Wise I Mean. With Regular Exercise, A Proper Diet. 8) I Am Gonna Start Smiling Again.
This Is For That Fucking Idiot Who Thinks He Knows Me. You Dont Know A Fuck About Me. Everyone Who Knows Me Knows That I Dont Give A Fuck About Fitting It At All Dont Come And Fucking Say Anything Thinking You Are Gonna Show That You Are Better Person Then Me. Cause The Fuck You Are Not. I Am Not Gonna Lie. I Did Lie About Certain Things Before But At Least My Friends Know My True Side. My Friends Know The True Me. Something You Dont. I Mean You Are More Fucking Arrogant Then Me. You Are The Most Fucking Person That I Have Ever Fucking Seen. Who The Fuck Told You That You Can Sing. I Sound Better When I Shit. And I Dance In The Room With The Door Locked Because I Dont Wanna Cause People's Eye To Bleed. What Happens When You Sing. Dont Fucking Act Like You Are Perfect, Cause Everyone Knows That You Are More Fucked Up Then Me. At Least Even Though I Am Fucked Up. I Have An Education To Fall Back On. What The Fuck Do You Have? Looks? Who The Fuck Do You Think You Look Like? A Model? Please They Only Spoon feed You To Fit Your Bluddy Mouth. At Least i Studied To Ensure That I Have A Proper Future. Who Is The One Dreaming? You Or Me? Unlike You. I Have Learned To Live Life On My Own.I Know How It Feels To Have No One By Your Side. But At Least I Survived. Wait Till They See Your True Side. Force And Anger Does Not Show A True Man. Then Again You Are Only The Youngest Right?
So 2010 Is Gonna Be A Year Filled With Ups And Downs. But With My Faith And Believe Intact. I Am Gonna Pull Through It. HWAITING!
