Dongho Looking Super Cute And Adorable In This Pic :D

So I Honestly Think Today Was The Best Day Of School So Far..

Not Gonna Talk About What Anyone Wore But At Least They Put In Effort To Wear Nice And Formal Clothes..

I Honestly Looked Horrible Today,

Here Is Why,

1) My Bald Spot Grew Bigger, And Dont Think I Dont Know People Were Laughing At It.

2) My Stomach Was Kinda Sticking Out.

3) I Was The Only One Who Wore A Vest In Sec 5.

4) My Eyes Shrunk In Size Whenever I Smiled.

5) I Honestly Need To Learn How To Be More Like A Guy ( Though I Dont Like The Male Species)

But The One Thing I Started Thinking About Today Was Do I Really Wanna Be Someone That Tailors Himself Around What Other People Want Him To Be?

I Mean By Nature I Am A Very Feminine Person, Who Fangirls' Over Guys ( Dont Worry I Got Scared Out Of My Wits Thus Becoming Straight Again), Likes To Do Many Feminine Actions. Likes To Laugh Like A Girl, Sways Like A Girl And Walks Like A Barbie Doll.

Though I Know The People Around Me Know I Am Like That, I Dont Wanna Be An Embarrassment To Them. Cause I Know People Around Them Will Be Like Why The Hell Is Friends With Him?

Neither Do I Wanna Be A Burden To Them..

I May Convey Myself As A Very Confident A Person,

But At Times,

When It Matters My Friends,

I Honestly Feel Like Crap.

Cause When My Friends Get Hurt Or Insulted Because Of Me.

I Get More Hurt.

Cause I Am The Reason For It.

Where Are My Male Hormones?

Do I Even Have Any Male Hormones?

The Reason I Love People Like Donghae,Ryeowook And Siwon?

Cause I Have Dreams That One Day I Will Become Like Them.

So Cool And Suave..

But Will My Dreams Come True?

Rahul..xoxo