I Wasnt Always Such A Troubled Kid.

Okay Maybe I Was.

Growing Up, I Always Judged For My Liking Of Barbie Dolls And The Spice Girls.

Thats When I Grew To Hate People As A Whole.

I Still Remember Those Moments Of Laughter As Males Laughed And Mocked Me.

That Was When Darkness Took Over My Life.

It Was The Darkness That Led Me To Becoming Anti- Social.

It Was The Darkness That Led Me To Becoming That Scared Little Person That Stood There During Pe Observing That Laughter And Smiles That Came Out.

That Watched Every Move Slowly As The People Moved Around Their Daily Lives.

It Was Those Painful Tears That Cause Me Much Anger And Stress.

It Was Those Tears That Led Me To Form My Egos.

From The Sporty Spice Era To theBLACKpearl.

They All Helped Me Cover Up The Pain I Was Feeling Under Neath It All.

Without Them I Am Very Cold.

Very Dark.

Under Those Egos Lied A Creature So Dark Even Darkness Didnt Know What To Do With It.

Today After 6 Whole Years.

The Dark Made Its Return.

As I Sat In The Quadrangle All I Could Think About Was Death.

In Class, I Faked A Smile To Conceal The Tears That Were About To Flow.

During Recess I Only Stayed Happy For Jelene And Co.

Back To Class Where For 2 Periods All I Thought About Was Jumping Out The Window.

The Only Time I Felt Save Today Was Under My Blanket Doing My Malay Hw In The Darkness With No One Around Me.

I Hate My Mind.

I Hate That It Over Exagarates Everything.

I Hate How It Twists Things To Make Everything Seem Wrong.

I Just Hate It.