April Has By Far Been The Worst Month In My Entire 17 Years If Existence In This World. Every Other Day I Was Either Crying In Just Being Emo. Every Raining Day Would See Me Crying Silently As I Walked In The Rain. Every Night Study Would See Me Putting A Mask On To Be Strong For Those Around. But Inside I Would Be Crying A River Just Killing Myself Over Everything. Yet, There Was Those Periods Where The Smile On My Face Came Out Natural. The Genuine Laughter That Had Faded Away Appeared Though It Was A Rare Sight. The Moments When They Happened Were Just Magnificent.
Lets Be Honest When I Say I Have Lost Nearly All My Friends. I Have Lost The Respect Of My Class Mates. But In This Process, I Realized That My Endurance Level Is Actually Kinda High. All Those Moments I Wanted To Take The Blade And Kill Myself, I Pulled It Together Before The Pain Turned Into Fear. Yes, I Can Honestly Admit That I Am A Loner With A Few Friends. But At Least Those Few Friends I Have Are Genuine And We Look Out For Each Other. Laugh At Me All You Want For Being A Nobody. Mock Me All You Want. Go Ahead, I Honestly Dont Give A Dammn Bout It Anymore.
I Never Imagined The Day I Would Finally Let Go Of You. I Wrapped You Up In Cotton Wool. Put You On A Pedestal Yet I Finally Realised That I Didnt Mean A Thing To You Did I. Honestly, You Deserve A Round Of Applause For Being The Best Actor In The Real World. I Hope You And Her Last Long. And Dont Even Bother Looking Or Talking To Me. Or You Will Get The Finger And A Lashing From Me. And You Know Me, I Am Not Joking Anymore.
As May Comes Round, I Am Gonna Pull It Together And Work Like Never Before For The Exams. 8 Points Is All I Need And Want!
Thank You To Those Who Actually Remembered My Birthday. Thanks To Michelle, Minyee, Natalie For The Cake <3 Thanks To Qinyi, Esther And Zeenia For The Night Doughnuts <3 Thanks To Keefe, Cherry Etc Who Smsed Me. <3 And Thanks To Adam For Being There This Whole Month <3
