Call Me A Studyfreak. Nerd. Loser.

Look At Me As A Gay Or Fag. Laugh At Me All You Want.

We'll See Who'll Have A Better Life Next Time.

You May Think I'm Weak. But I've Survived Much More Than You.

Bring It On,

thePOSHnerd Is Back. Xoxo

Hihi.

Its Me Again, 

Life Lately Has Been Interesting Filled With Much Pain And Thinking.

The One Thing I Hate Happens When I Can't Be Transparent With The People I Love/ Care About.

Well, It's Not Me, It's Them.

My Life Is Complicated Fill With Much Pain And Misery.

If You Were To Hear My Story, You Would Honestly Wonder Why The Hell Do I Fake A Smile And Not Show How I Truely Feel.

You See, I Hate People Worrying About Me, It Absolutely Sucks.

I Hate Feeling Pathetic, It Makes Me Feels Inferior.

Then Again, I Hate It When People Forget That I At The End Of The Day Have Feelings.

I May Not Want You To Care About Me, But I Would Like To Get Across That I've Feelings.

Yes, Like Every Human Being, I've Feelings.

Many People Always Seem To Treat Me Like A Robot.

It's Honestly Getting On My Nerves That People Seem To Disregard My Feelings.

I May Put A Smile On.

Inside I Cry Like Crap.

People Who Say I Dont Care About Them Honestly Deserve A Slap On Their Face.

The Way I Show My Love Is Not Like Any Other.

I Tend To Show It In The Things I Do, I'll Print Notes For You, I'll Buy You Lunch, I'll Listen To You Talk.

I Know I Suck At Being A Good Friend.

But Anyone Who Knows Me Well Enough Will Know That Always Put Those I Care About In Front Of Me.

I'll Drop Everything I Have To Be By Their Side, Even If I Get Hurt, Seeing Them Being Happy Makes Me Happy.

I Dont Care If I Get Hurt, Injured Bashed Up, All I Wanna See Is A Smile On Their Face.

But After 17 Years Of Living,  I Realize That I Dont Fit In Anywhere.

I've So Many Examples To List Out.

I've Lost So Many Friends, That I've Kinda Given Up On The Term Friendship Never Ends.

I Know I Am Not A Perfect Person.

1) I Tend To Exaggerate A Lot.

2) I Tend To Be A Little Bossy

3) I Tend To Announce Things Before They Are Confirmed

4) I Suck At Time Management.

5) I Tend To Complain A Lot

Then Again No One Is Perfect Right?

I Hate It That People Always Expect Me To Be Something They Want Me To Be For Their Own Gain.

I Always Feel Like A Tissue Paper, Once Used, I'm Just Thrown One Side.

The Reason I Never Complain About People To Their Face?

I Dont Wanna Create Tension Between Us,

I Know I'm A Bitch By Nature. But I've Learned To Express My Anger Differently. 

I've Stopped Talking About People Behind Their Backs, I Write It Down In A Compo And Throw It Away.

Yet, I Find It Pointless, Cause People Talk About Me Behind My Back And Fake A Smile In Front Of My Face.

I'm Open To Criticism. 

It Might Sting, But If You Know Me Well Enough,

You Would Know That I'll Do Anything To Change For The Better.

If It Means Giving Up Many Things, I'll Do It, If It Makes You Happy.

Sadly, I Am Not A Robot, Neither Am I Perfect, I'm Gonna Make Mistakes.

Like Everyother Human Being I MAKE Mistakes.

What's So Wrong About  That?

 If You Say I Lied? Need I Show You Evidence?

I Know I Lead An Extravagant Life, But That's The Life I Was Raised In.

I Cant Do Anything About It.

I Am Trying To Not Show It As Much Anymore.

FYI, I Dont Open Up Easily To Anybody,

For You Me To Open Up To You,

It Simply Shows How Much I Trust You.

Sadly, For Many Cases In My Life, I'm Proven Otherwise.

From Now On, I'm Gonna Be Less Open.

I Dont Care If People Think I Am Cold/ Arrogant.

I Never Wanna Get Myself Into A Position Where I Get Hurt, Stepped Over Again,

Life Moves On, I Am Gonna Have To Move On. 

I Am Gonna Have To Go Back To My Primary School Days Where I Was Just Closed And Not A Single Bit Open.

I May Have Been Lonely Most Of The Time,

But At Least I Was Never Hurt.

After So Many Occasions,

I've Finally Learned My Lesson.

I Make Mistakes, I Make Errors, But Dont You Ever Dare To Correct Me When You Yourself Are Not Perfect.

Rahul..xoxo